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stalking yrself
so the other day .. i mean..
last monday whc was a sch holiday. esther n i went to the airport n saw this blonde dude standing there.
est: *thinks :" that guy's hair y so weird '*
me: " ooohhh blondeee... OMG THAT'S NAT HO!" ( local celeb)
we stood there for a moment n stare.
he was alone and waiting for someone. n he looked slightly pissed.
maybe it was cuz no one. ( no one like moi who got super good eyes xD) recognise him.
plus it was kinda empty there hence no one noticed him.
EXCEPT MOI. CUZ MOI EYES BERRI GOOD. XD
we didnt dare to go n take a pic with him..
well i didnt dare to. est didnt care. that's all.
as we walked i procastinated until we reach the airport busstop so we cldnt go back n take a pic. cuz it's just damn ma fan (troublesome ) and retarded.
but we tweet abt it.
well esther started it cuz i dont tweet that much.
den..
so esther was a tad bit shock.
we didnt tag him..so how he know?
hmmm...
so we conclude that.. he prolly typed his name into the search bar n found out post cuz..well..
our post was in the top few searches...surprisingly.
so.
stalking yerself eh.
i got bored after the prev post n i was reluctant to study for chi oral test. will practise later dont worry.
i'll even practise in my slp if i have to.
i went to google n typed names of ppl i knw.
i found out that kimberly ang in aep got a lot of leadership roles.
i found out that yixiu n daniel... got ... hardly any info on google.
esther's first 3 results were her blog links.
for me.
i found out.
I AM A NERD.
1. Vice chairman of 2e2.
2. Took part in elements.
3. Mathematics society.
WTH? all sci n math stuff. my worse n hated subjects
if any one googled me.. they'll think i'm a nerd....
* looks away n weep*
oh yea i also found out this:
fangyi + moi????
weiting + moi?????
wad ish this???????
ok ok i'll stop being so stalker-ish n narcisstic. so good nite and work hard. est
2012 my birthday
omg.
wad happened to blogger. O>O
seriously,.
i was only like MIA for awhile den go for full body surgery already
( i mean blogger, not me. )
*chatter frm non-existence audience
lamenting my long absence MIA for berii long.. not just awhile *
opps. c'mon lah i was damn busy (and lazy to type...)
glup...
* gets bricked*
anyway. i hope blogger is now better n more advance nw...
oh yea. so as usual
i would blog about my birthday cuz im so narcissistic.
this year, was my first year in jc. and im really glad i met some awesome ppl in aep.
we had a mini aep celebration in the art room that died down after we got discovered by the teachers.
so yea.
my class sang the bday song to me during gp ( teacher wasn't there) it was really touching n awkward at the same time.
* awkward moment when everyone sings the bday song for u but u dunno how to react*
-SING WITH THEM? WOULD THAT BE TOO NARCISSTIC?
-STONE? ISN'T THAT RUDE?
-SMILE ? OH C'MON THAT'S CREEPY
SO I JUST AWKWARDLY SMILE AND PRETEND TO CLAP TO A NON-EXISTENT RHYTHM
but the day just went by like that. nothing big.
i wasn't expecting presents. a celebration. cakes or anything fancy.
i guess after years of planning a mini gathering in my house kinda made me dread birthdays....
oh the work of planning, buying food with yr own money, finding stuff to do...etc.
i mean i was kinda excited for those parties... but at the end of the day when u clean up and cake the remaining too-sweet-to-eat cake alone.. u kinda feel like an idiot.
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and birthdays are more about ... well... making yr kid happy or being grateful to yr mother for going into labour and spending money on u for years. Oh ya, and those nice doctors for pulling u out. cut yr dear first friend, the umbilical cord and spank you on the butt to make sure u cry so u breathe.
( or soo they say * raise eyebrow* )
just joking, thank you for spanking my baby butt. thank you.
so yea.
not that i'm lamenting or being ungrateful for those kind friends of mine n my wonderful parents n maid that helped out.
i just feel like...my previous years.. previous birthdays...were to make ppl happy.
leaving myself.. a little empty sometimes... :/
maybe i wanna be selfish.
or maybe i'm selfish for saying all these. but yea... that's wad was inside my heart.
so maybe for now.. no more bday gatherings.
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OKAY SO I DIGRESS.
wait.. wad was i saying?
oh i didnt expect anything. den wad happened..
oh yea.
something happen lor.
i mean wad u expect when i said " i didnt expect anything"?
i was doing some art prep work ( which worries me cuz my medium variety is very small) in the art room with only a few other aep students.
i was wondering where" were the rest.. prolly painting in the other room "
den suddenly kimberly came in.
and den everyone ( there's only 9 of us so they came in really fast )
came in all a sudden. n kimmi said " guys today is phoebe's birthday so let's sing her a birthday song"
moi: but i thought u guys sang it just nw during g------------------
everyone : happy birthday wertyuiop[assdhbfkghkg ( u knw the song)
kimi: so pheebs c'mere we got u presents.
moi: presents?
* a bit taken aback n worried cuz..aep ppl usually gt smth funny up their selves n u know how scary birthday jokes are. eg. cake smash *
then kimi took out this nice paper bag well decorated and there was this warning sign and a flying pig on it..
" beware of pork"
HUH?
we took some pics together n opened the present.
inside was the nicest thing i ever received this yr.
my favourite food that i briefly mentioned before to someone i cnt rmb....
there was the buble cadbury chocolate. macadamia nuts, strawberries and mars.
ok mars was ... a bit incorrect but close... not gonna tell them that.. hope they wont see this.
if they do... pretend u didnt. xD
i was damn happy sia.
but also a bit sad when i reach home cuz i was getting a flu..and i think i cnt eat them that day.
but i took a bit of the cadbury chocolate and i was in bliss.
before someone shoots me : " i thought u say u dont like chocolates?!"
well yea. i dont really like chocolates. but there are a few that i occasionally choose to munch on.
chocolates that i find interesting to eat.
yea.
and those are the chocolates.
i suspect kimberly was the one that i told. cuz she's that nice to remember things. but it could also be yixiu who i always talk to.. or, someone else who tricked me into saying those stuf.. * pause n think*
maybe i'll just move on with it.
since it's a present from everyone.
:D
i hope i got some pics. to show.. hmmm
oh yea i got a new phone. using my money that i won from some design competition last month.
getting the money hopefully this week.
I'm really grateful to meet all these kind ppl in aep.
i guess we're friends cuz we knw
we need each other
to get through the tough period
in our jc lives.
This isn't a selfish thing to do, Needing others in life to live isn't selfish at all.
it's just human nature.
don't condemn it.
accept it.
dont be cynical.
believe in it.
friends will never be as perfect as the ones in anime. but it's alright.
because what is fiction can never be real.
they are just imitating reality.
Friendship is where two ppl play a part in creating a certain kind of bond.
We need injections ( okay im gonna be a bit "econs" here)
such as common topic to talk about, encouragement, greetings. small gifts etc.
and these are created by us. We do them on our own initiative.
however there's always withdrawals such as competition between friends, neglecting each other, arguments.
There always must be a balance.
and it's always two ppl doing it
if one person stops injecting. there will be too much withdrawal and the consumption--- i mean.. the friendship is really one-sided and negative.
i dunno whether u're still thinking in that way since it has been one month. but
i hope u can start believing and stop being dark.
UPDATES
i think i better start typing more entries here.
I need to record what i do in my life more.
For example, who i am today.
I am currently in NYJC, studying h2,, econ lit art and h1 math.
So.. i found some really good friends in jc.
i got my aep peeps, daniel, yi xiu, kimberly ang, min hao, xin hong, jolene, edwina, dong yan.
LOL we only got 9 ppl....
but it's fine, we 're more close that way.
We always get a good laugh out of dan n xin hong's banterings.
Oohh min hao's sense of humor is quite good too. His montone voice always carries the joke pretty well.
because his english isnt very good, he use little words. but his words got more impact that way.
short n simple. xD but uber funnay .
Xinhong always ask silly qns. well she ask cuz she really dunno. but in most ppl's opinion we dont ask those qns even if we dunno. we usually quietly wait for the whole thing to finish den ask someone close. but she just directly blatantly ask. Which makes the whole conversation quite silly n a few of us would burst into laughter.
Jolene is the evil bunny. She's uber innocent in terms of appearance, expression .and first impression.
Once she get close to u.. her dark side.... ah nvm.
i think i shldnt go analysing them in the entry it's kinda rude but still... i MUST mention daniel.
Daniel. he's one of the closer ppl i hang out with. that's cuz everyone is his best friend. It's true.
He's that type of person. An uber extrovert. Im an introvert so i kinda get blow away by his confidence at times.
As most aep peeps are introverts.. the aep room is usually very quiet.. until daniel come in.
im serious.
oh yea and my lovable yixiu,
she's like my little kid sister.. but she's older den me by months. xD
she's quite blur but talented... xD loyal and a joy to be with
and there's kimberly ang, my lame friend.
" so lame that i need a wheel chair XD"
she said that! not me!
OOoohhhh they are such fun ppl!
Beside the aep peeps there's a few 1232 ppl i hang out more with,
thomas, andrea, yiwen, mel, chloe, hannah, etc etc
yea. we kinda dont have a clique thing going on. the whole class is quite bonded. :D
Boredom
Gosh. Today is the first day of the march holis.
AND IM DAMN BORED.
i didnt know holidays can be soo boring.
I wanna do smth. but im too lazy to do so..
i think waking up at 1pm have smth to do with this laziness...
So wad was I up to for the past weeks???
Well, my beloved Elizabeth left us. aka my domestic housekeeper. aka Maid
Elizabeth is the one in the black tee with a giant yellow circle there.
So that means... I have to do chores nw. :(
I also went to .... COSFEST with bry this year.
:)
LOL i rmb when i asked to take his pic this guy replied in a squeaky " SURE"
xDDDDDDDDDDd
YAY for cosfest!
and then... some pics i took at the botanic gardens for my art assignment whc i failed miserably cuz i didnt follow instructions and went to take pretty pics with no intentions or meaning :<
So yea..
that's my summary of what happened during the past weeks..
AND OF COURSE.
i failed my first maths test of the year. ( as usual, no surprise)
actually i havent received the results.. but i just knw it. IT ALWAYS HAPPENS. :<
and i got a little over.... ambitious with my chi essay and wrote out of point.. :< so i failed that too..
Oh well... But anyway life in Jc has been pretty... odd.. i guess... some would say it tough cuz i only get to go home like...after 5.30 or 6... or 6.30.. sometimes i stay back and do art.... which means i'll only leave at 7.. :<
No time for libraries and shopping :<
sad life... huh.. but i managed to catch up with the others in art ( says my art teach to my mum..o.o) So... despite not taking o lvl art.. WOOO HOOO.. i must work hard... * flames in eyes...*
QIAO QIAO QIAO
So recently i was looking for an art tutor.
GUESS WAD?
I GOT ONE TODAY :D
nnn i got a bigger surprise.
he's my sec 1 art teacher
surprise surprise.
so as some of u knw, im currently in the aep club in NYJC.
life here is ...well... not so tough..YET.
so before the storm arrives. i need to prepare.
Like an umbrella and take my clothes that were left out to hang, in.
So... i need art tuition.
YEP. ART TUITION EXIST ALRIGHT.
and Art is a decent subject here, so pleaase dont go saying " aiyaa, art got talent can ace le"
no lor! it's not so easy. Like Mr hao my art teacher always said " practise make permanent"
Art is just like math. U need to practise to get yr A.
It's your attitude that determines your altitude.
Hohoho. soo chim hor?
Oh yea, main topic.
So, one of the church members introduced me to her neighbour.
At first i heard that he was taiwanese i thought of my sec 1 art teach..den i thought.
NO lah singapore whr got so QIAO. Plus i think mr hao go back to taiwan le :<
den i found out that his name was 候XX
den i thought... hmm cnnt be lah. Mr hao leh not mr hou.
( TURNS OUT HOU IS HAO IN ENGLISH..LOL)
So today i went to see him face to face.
At first i thought "hmm..look like leh..but mr hao whr got so young"
As we chatted he asked me about my sec sch
mum: " it's at sengkang there... ya knw..er....德新中学"
art teacher: Ehhhh i used to teach there.. for like a yr.
me: O>O ehhh cher do u still rmb me? phoebe. 1e2!
cher: EHHHHHHHHHHHH
QIAOQIAOQIAO LOL
turns out it really is him.
i didnt realise it was cuz he looked too young to be him.
it was like as he grew older he looked younger. 0>0
but anyway. yea! esther! it's really him so LOL！
Today..
Today, I went to church.
Had a meeting.
Had dinner.
Met some friends.
Celebrated his birthday.
Today I woke up with the intention of spilling everything.
All the contents.
All of my heart to someone.
Sang the song.
Ate the cake.
Chat a little.
She passed me a piece of paper.
I read it.
Thought about it.
Wanted to spill the beans to her.
But.
I didnt.
As we took the escalator up.
I looked up.
I realised one thing.
and maybe another.
As I type all this.
The lid of my heart has tighten again.
And I swore to never open it.
Valentine's Day
Well this year, my valentine's day is quite different from previous years.
No, i dont have a valentine. But i certainly didnt spend it alone. :)
Since I'm currently in Junior college, i guess seeing brightly coloured balloons, chocolates, roses, posters hanging around is quite normal.
Girls will give girls bouquet of roses, and Guys will give some other girls Balloon, Bears and roses.
In my secondary school days, only a few enthusiastic romantics would give chocolates and those with GUTS would buy roses and give them to that lucky, or unlucky girl. ( it really depends)
In NYJC, Valentine's day is widely celebrated, even the teachers celebrate v DAY.
At the end of the morning announcements, they actually wish all of us a happy v day.
In lectures, some goofy lecturers would joke about it.
My economics teacher.. actually taught us how to fold origami heart to give out as a V day present ( CHEAP AND CREATIVE....yea-.- right!)
The first time in my life, i realised how V day seemed like a really big thing in Singapore and Im glad i didnt have to go home alone and mop in my room over my singlehood.
So yea. I actually made v day as an excuse to get all my lovely friends out of their shells and to AJISEN!
I actually invited... wt jj isa est bry fy zy damian jason jiayi ye ...11 ppl for the dinner... but 4 didnt made it :<
We took a long time deliberating where to eat. My place or at nex.
( a photo i made esther whatsapp to bry cuz he didnt reply my msg :<)
SoO.... weiting jiejia isa bry esther zhengyuan jiayi and i ate at NEX ajisen restaurant tgt for the first time :D
broke a hole in my wallet.. though... BUT IT'S WORTH IT!
CUZ I GET TOOO SEE MEE PALSSS :D
NYJC life
Oh well, so if you err... keep up with my sad pathetic life you would know I'm currently in Nanyang Junior College.
A school..
at Lorang Chuang
Near Nex, the err super big mall located at Serangoon.
My subject combi?
E.LIT
ART
ECON
all H2
only one H1, MATHS
so yea..
jc life is starting soon
am alrdy like very stressed up cuz of aep ..
im like at the bottom bcuz of how i got in..
sad..
MUST DO MY BEST!!!
ALRIGHT!
less talk abt stress more about other stuff...
like..
what should i get for my best guy friend's birthday......
urghhhhhhh
UHHHHHHHHH
IDK...
okay let's move on then..to...
what should i get for my best friend's birthday...
uhh..
idk...
okay!
let's move on then to what i should get for my other best friend's birthday..
..
IDK TOO!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
damn u February!!!!
art
oops i have been neglecting this blog man...
oh well
anyway so i have been really busy with making my portfolio
wed is the aptitude test so im quite... scared nw like freaking out n desperate so yeap
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most ridiculous post of the 2011
Must be the jc n poly boys thing.
but anyway imma going nyjc ( it's my first choice)
so.. yeap.
nyjc boys... hmm... im just joking people seriously....
that post was just well. plain humor.
and embarrassing ...now that so many people brought it up....
i wont typed their names here..( cuz i cnt rmb who exactly said wad .. but anyway)
" i cnt believe you r that kind of person "
" oh didnt know u're like that..."
" i didnt know u were straight"
( ok! no one said this lah. im joking)
" she read everything and told me..esp...a particular entry
on following
your brother's footsteps..."
( ok..that's issac, beatrice... wad exactly did u tell him? ) oh yeah and this one
" ah ahahahahahaha WTS!"
( esther, you know.. who is this... u know... i mean like who else will say wts)
so yeap..
that entry kinda showed me....all the stalkers....all of you guys.....
and the fact that..well.. people still read my blog.
thank you for spending your precious time on my little... insignificant blog , Thank you so much.
I guess that was the star awards speech .. wow..
" i wanna thank my mum, my dad, blogger and .....my fans~~~~ "
yeap.
definitely
what the shit am i writing?!
this wasn't wad i wanted to blog abt!!!!
I WAS SUPPOSE TO BLOG ABT MATURITY! POLITICS! AWESOME STUFF THAT WILL MAKE ME SEEM COOLER N MORE AWESOME!!!
THINGS THAT ARE... WAIT FOR IT....
LEGENDARY!
good night O lvl results
Im really surprised.
I got 10 for L1R5.
8 for L1R4
SURPRISE SURPRISE
i actually expect myself to score worse...
once again, THANK GOD FOR THE WONDERFUL RESULTS! PRAISE THE LORD!
so lemme tell u wad happened today . 9 dec 2011 i mean.... jan 2012
i woke up at 11am plus... cuz i slept at 1.15am the night before...
( was watching harry potter deathly hallows part 2 )
i promised my bro to go jogging ...but failed..
cldnt wake up
BRO ENTERS ROOM N PULLS MY HAND
bro : wake up...
me: uhh.... dun wan...go dfthjkglrhen
bro: o.0 wad did she say?
me: * some weird mumbling *
bro puts hand down
bro : i tried my best.... * leaves room*
UHH WAD AM I GOING TO DO ABT
ALL THIS HOLIDAY N O LVL FATS?!!!!
aNYWAY, at 12.39pm.. i took my shower.. hence i was late for meeting weiting....
we were suppose to meet at 12.40pm.. i left the house at 12.48pm
met her at 1pm.
weiting was infuriated...
at sch, we first met jiejia at the foyer.
den we met bry isa ye
shooo excited ~
our class mates...except for that malay guy at the end...
isa n bry bought their guitars.. or say.. my bro's guitar that i lent isa and bry's own guitar that he painstakingly saved money to buy.
Young ern n isa r still trying to do a taylor swift cover on the song " speak now" that has lyrics that dont make sense... hohohoh...
After dragging our dear little trembling feets to the hall ( ok.. im exaggerating)
we sat down on the wooden floor...... chatting madly, excited and afraid of wad was going to happen next....
well before i sat down i talked to meihwa, my lovely little besty from my pri sch.
n..... her friend ran and stopped in front of us exclaiming...
" MR LIM SAY WE DID BADLY FOR O LVL THIS YR"
but we managed to score quite well.. i mean.... better den wad we expected... ( diff ppl gt diff definition of " quite well" )
top 5 of sec 5N
i only knew the top 2, zhu he n yi xue frm chi drama. quite proud of them but sad la. we not on good terms liao. used to say "hi" and wave. den during mugging period we stopped until nw. LOL...
top 5 of sec 4E cohort
1. theresa.
she deserved it. she's soo awesome as a person n chairperson. kind n hardworking too im glad to know theresa during sec 3 when i sit nxt to her.
2. milly
i think it was milly. i heard that she always did quite well for her exams. nvr spoke to her before though. never had the guts or chance to do so.
3. young ern
kinda expected him to go up. i mean.. he suddenly score so well for his exams since sec 3. cnt believe that he used to be that idiot who fools around and copy my lousy hw.
4. weiting
expected too. i mean. she's my son!!! i mean. she's super hardworking n smart. even though she only got tuition for el. she's amazing. she totally deserved to be up there.
5. xavier.
didnt expect him. but this shows that hardwork n determination gives u wonderful results. he posted his results on fb n said " to u, mum n dad"
wow. that guy is awesome it's a pity that i nvr talked to him that much.
so... me n jiejia were clapping n cheering for weiting. proud of her and happy for her... den..when the cheering dies down... we felt this tremble.... and fear... consuming us... and drowning us...
" she did so well...wad abt me? "
praise the lord. we did ok too.
we got our results in index no. nich n bry n isa n fy went up first cuz their index no. r in the top few
bry didnt dare to see his.. den he slowly opened his eyes.. n looked L1r5: 11
not bad!
i was hoping for my L1R4 to be 11 xD didnt had a lot of confidence in my grades.
then it was isa. isa took a long time counting hers. i heard a " YESH!" frm her direction n i knew she done well too. heard that she got lotsa As.
cnt rmb her score too well though....it's around 10-11? paisehhh
then fy got her results, L1r4 :13 pts not bad i hugged her n asked her abt her plans. she havent got any yet. i pray that god will guide her to her destination :)
nich got L1r5 : ........
shit.. i forgot too. uhhh 9 ? 11? cnt rmb
then jiejia went up n i know.... that im up soon... cuz aft jiejia.. it was zoey den me
i was soo nervous as i walked to mdm lim n ms lee.
mdm lim was smiling but idk wad she smiling at. me ? or everybody? uhhhh
* walks away*
dont look at results.. suspense... walk to find a comfort buddy... uhh no one there...
luckily, esther found me. she said " dont worry im here to * looks around n saw some sad faces* uhh console u;... *pause* or celebrate with u .
LOL
i took a look at the result slips..
there were As n Bs.
no Cs.
i was elated.
i didnt care abt how much i got. like how many A2 B3 B4 i just felt happy that there were no Cs, that i used to get. and praise the lord. esther counted for me, and said " 10."
u got a ten
me : " L1R4?" est: " L1R5"
est: " L1R4 : 8"
i couldnt believe it. super happy i mean... is there another word for happy? euphoria? wadevr i was extremely delighted. i never expect myself to get near 10. i was contend with 12, 14 NEVER DID I EXPECT THESE RESULTS. and i must say. prayer works. it always did.
for health, relationships, and studies. praise the lord for the miracles he has done in your life
and now i wanna quote this line frm the bible that my eng tutor gave me before my eng paper
" I CAN DO EVERYTHING THROUGH HIM WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH " PHIL 4:13
i can score well, becuz i believed in him. that he would guide me to the right path. and he did.
i called my mum aft knwing the gd news.
Mum: " hello? "
me: " i got 10 for l1r5, 8 for l1r4" mum: " really? ok ok... yr eng got how much? ......................( so i told her bit by bit, whc sub gt how much)
mum: oh so u scored better den bry by 1 pt lah me : ya....wait! HOW U KNW?! ========================================== Paused my call with mum n went to bry
me: " how come my mum know yr results? " bry: oh.. she cldnt get to u just nw cuz u didnt pick up the phone so she called me... me: WAD??????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
============================================= BCK TO MUM
me: " U CALLED BRY?!" mum: yeah. u didnt pick up. me : how u get his number?! mum: oh my phone spoiled. so im using yr old phone nw. me: ......................
AFTER THE CALLS N THE SMSES FRM MY CHURCH PEEPS N TUTORS. WE STAYED AT THE HALL CHATTING MADLY DEN WE WENT TO KFC N ATE N CHAT N IM SLEEPY NW SO NITE
Worst xmas eve
Shit my skin is getting worse.
Lack of slp..
anyway
this xmas eve sux due to the overpowering person in charge of the church xmas event.
It caused the whole family to be utterly pissed off.
Not just that, I received more dumb news.
Dumb old stuff.
Move on already, we're over this.
"Do wad you like"
OH I SHALL. YOU'LL SEE :D
Im hoping to see the face of shame on monday.
How i got over a sad rejection
So after kbox with bry jason n guan jie, my mind lingered on that previous sad issue awhile...
before a new issue arrived.
My husband divorced me on fb.
My husband as in fangyi of cuz.
i didnt know what happen. SO.... i stayed ignorant for a few days.
Until one day at camp ( the first day of my church camp)
Me * playing cards with my brother and the other church peeps*
*beep beep beep*
Me: eh.. my phone ringing..hold on.
* takes phone and go out n listen*
* bry's photo pops out on the phone screen, ( i gt this display pic for bry on my phone *
* press listen button*
Bry: hello, bebe, fangyi is angry at u.
me : ...HUH?!
Bry: yea, she's angry at u for nt inviting her to kbox n www.
me: DOUBLE HUH?!
well, kbox..why didnt i invite her.... well i have a reason for that. for 4 years of knowing her..
i never heard her sing once. Once during sec 1 my birthday. I was singing with meihwa. i called the rest to sing with us. but they refused
THEY : weiting, fangyi, jiejia
so i kinda thought that they dont sing in public.
i mean in front of other people.
so i didnt invite them .
plus when we went for kbox during the class chalet. they also didnt come, so once again, i just assumed they didnt sing. so i didnt know why was she angry.
www= wild wild wet. well .. i did invite her. so i dont get why she said i didnt.
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after wards i found out that she lost all her msgs..... so maybe she thought i didnt is bcuz of that n she forgot.
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but anyway. i wasnt that pissed off at first. i was kinda neutral. cuz she didnt scold me any vulgarities yet. i was just. " oh she's angry at me for that.. i mean that's kind of a trival issue isnt it? " i mean in the past she didnt invite me to other stuff i didnt get angry.. so i dont getit.
plus the happy n idiotic mood i was at camp kinda cancelled out all the negetive stuff like previously realising that the guy i liked like someone else and the fact my best friend is pissed off at me.
it was until day two. i got pissed off
at night :
i looked at my phone n saw two msgs :
one frm youngern, another from weiting
ye: yay! i baked a chocolate cake with lemon
curd inside. i got a stomachache. think it's
the chocolate milk. dont worry. i think i'll
use banana puree instead.
( okay so he didnt say it that way, n i didnt quote word for word but anyway, it was a funny thing to hear at night. HA! he got a stomachache. )
WT: fy really angry at u.
me : ...haha.....uhhhhh
so those two msgs kinda balanced out my emotions... oh btw ================================================================ i also received two funny msgs frm bry while he was working ( telemarketing)
1st msg: this is wad happened at work :
bry: can i look for _________? female voice : he's not in
bry: oh.. den are u _________'s father?! O>O
female voice :...uhhh no...daughter,....
bry : AHHHH WAD AM I SAYING?!
LOL :D
2nd msg: I just said good morning to the customer! ahhhh ( it was like in the evening)
well, bry was really distracted that day.. he was soo scared that he might get fired. xD LOL ======================================================================
anyway i tried to stay cool for like... the whole day. avoid using fb.
but after the camp... i went home n use fb.. once i saw notifications of her. i got pissed off i mean it was like a serious of primary school kids fighting...
I really felt like that.
i mean she posted all this strange stuff on fb
like one post she said she didnt care anymore. but if she didnt care, why bother to announce it on fb ? :D ( ha, u get my pt?) and she mentioned that she feel like her friends r treating her like outcasts. hey she was busy with work, we didnt want to disturb her. plus we were busy with our own work
DAMN U PART TIME JOBS.
then she go on and announce that... she will stay in contact with only a few ppl.
leaving my name, bry and est names out. wad was she trying to say?
i was very infuriated by her comments on fb. i felt like i was reliving my primary school life of plain torturous friendyoudontfriendyou issues.
worst is the bluffblufffriendyou issues. they are the worse.
Definition of bluffblufffriendyou :
Having a bestfriend of a year, den at the end
of the year she says : " i bluff bluff friend
you" which means " i never really liked you, u
were never my friend. I JUST USED YOU. HA!"
ah.. those memories. i rmb that girl called regina used to do that cuz sheena my nemesis hated me to the core and she wanted to ruin me. so she called regina ( who turned out to be sheena's bestfriend) to friend me for a time being. then one day regina and sheena goes up to me and say
" i bluff bluff friend you one"
sheena : " you really think she was your friend? "
me : " ...."
luckily i didnt really like regina back then when she suddenly friend me. ( it was just plain suspicious) i was just...well neutral. i was usually neutral during primary school from primary 1 -4. my best friends would quarrel with each other and i would just say " dont pull me into it. please. dont."
until... i met meihwa... i started taking sides on issues and have my own opinion... strange.. i kinda miss mh...aww...
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- so after i saw her fb wall i did something that bry called me not to do.
i posted this
" i know you're angry at me. but stop embarrassing yourself. it's really childish. "
yeap.
that caused a roar.
bry: ' bebe! i thought we said not to post anything?! wad was that abt?!"
after awhile
bry: " bebe! she saw it! she's angry she said ( the F word ) and we're no longer friends.
i was more pissed off at her response. cuz well..
she said some mean things abt me behind my back n trampled on me. i havent even said anything mean to her but she was treating me like shit. how dare she say we're no longer friends when i didnt. i mean. arent i the victim here?
later, she sms-ed me saying
; that post was on it isnt it?
i was kinda taken aback that she is finallly like talking abt that issue to me. like seriously. if you're angry at me. tell me. dont hide behind n backstab ppl
me: finally you're talking abt it. so y r u angry at me?
i think fy was tired of being angry and maybe that whole issue was just..well...
A HUGE PMS.
cuz she suddenly said
fy; can we leave the past behind?
i didnt reply her cuz i didnt getit... i thought she was the one that was really pissed off.
well, at this moment bry/ye is also msging us
ye sent this msg, quoting frm the bible abt love. and calling us sissy... using bry's phone.
fy didnt knw it was ye but she was annoyed
fy: it's fucking annoying and irritating. bry keep spamming me and nw he is talking abt love.
me: i think that's ye... nt bry.."
fy: wait. how you know?
me: i received the same msg. ye used bry's phone...i mean bry dont call ppl "sissy"
fy: yea.. n it's gross when he start talking abt love.
so fy said something along the line of a " truce"
and i went along with it. i mean i was never the aggressive type and i was really glad i didnt have
to go through the part of losing a friend
and just like that. we kinda resolved the feud. well, it was a bit of a one-sided feud cuz half the time i didnt know wad was going on until bry told me.
but anyway, we started to talk again..
i hope this last.
anyway maybe some of you may wonder why didnt i like put up a tough fight.. cuz.. it didnt really matter i guess... i mean through this whole issue i realized who are my true friends that will stand beside me and people really do care. like lol
i got this msg frm jason
jason : hi
me: umm hi?
jason: Bitch im fangyi, let's meet up and
settle this
me: we jus settled it.. ( -.- )
jason; jk lol.
turns out bry told ye, jason and guan jie abt it and jason was just trying to make me laugh...
AT WORK.
yep. this whole thing happened during work. i feel like a bad worker now...uhhh
Christmas
Okay i'm kind of over that whole issue after drawing gazillion
paintings of darkness n stabbing swords into ... nevermind u
dont have to know that.
( aww..my fingers have paint stains nw... sad...)
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i know this year i havent really blog much.
Blogger is like... so old and ..... ancient. But i dont really wanna move to tumblr yet... even though they look so pretty *w*
yea... maybe i'll change the blogskin here... later...
Well xmas is coming. like in a few days time.. and i havent really gotten anything on my gift list:
WHAT DOES THE GIFT LIST CONSIST OF?
well good qns...
the gift list actually consist of what i wanna give my friends this xmas.
esther, if u manage to read this before the 23rd. u can play this guessing game on who gets wad
1) Finish my scrap book for a my son.. i mean someone..
2) Buy nail polish for the lady frm my church ( cuz she said that my current nail polish looks nice)
i think i'll buy the blue one for her...
3) a hat ..no maybe i shld get him a black frame...
4) a box of rings, hairbands and braclets.
5) a scrapbook
6) a teddy bear
7) a scarf
8) nail polish + nail polish art pen
9) another scrapbook
...uhhh that's all i can think of. i actually wanted to get someone a beanie.... nvm... i have to wait until im completely fine before i start thinking about that..if nt.. i may place some needles inside the beanie and....
hahahah...
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